THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST

"It's just an accident of birth that I'm not more important than I am."

That has got to be one of my all-time favorite lines. I heard that the other day on this British TV show called "Keeping Up Appearances" or something like that. It's funny, but British funny. My mom loves the show, and since it was on I checked it out. Good thing, because now I have a new mantra.

I guess this is where I'm supposed to talk about all my goals and resolutions for next year. I'll make it quick:

-Lose Weight (how original!)
-Sign up for TIAA Cref as a self-employed musician and invest my money
-Get my new store up and running (more to come about that)
-Actively be more social and stop hanging out at my house all the time

So that's out of the way, let's move on!

I know some of you may have wondered why I haven't written in a while, and it's a combination of being really busy and somewhat depressed.

The funny thing is, since leaving the BSO and being self-employed I thought I'd be really happy and motivated. Just the opposite. I've realized that I've very quickly slipped into a life of laziness and gluttony. I've been eating, sleeping, and staying in a LOT. It's just not healthy for a single, 32 yr old gal to be never leaving her home and stuffing herself with chinese food take-out. It all has led to me feeling bad about myself and feeling incredibly lonely....so it's going to change.

I signed up for WW again yesterday. Even though I hadn't been to the Wednesday meeting in about a year, all the people still new me and they were really welcoming and SO happy to see me. I was really glad I went, and I feel really motivated to start taking care of my health. I was going to wait until after New Year's for my "resolution" but really, I was so disgusted with myself that I went yesterday instead of waiting. I'm really glad I did, because for the first time in a while, I felt good about myself doing something positive.

I also decided to take a chance with online personals again. I have little hope that I'll actually meet "the one," but I want to go out - or be taken out - and have a good time with no pressure. I'm tired of sitting at home thinking about what could have been with Mr. X. I need to live in the NOW.

Wow, I'm a downer! lol

Ok, you'll be happy to know that despite the blatant neglect of my own health and happiness, I have been working REALLY hard career-wise. I'm doing a lot of stuff musically, and in fact did a four-song COUNTRY demo that you can hear on my website: tauniasoderquist.com. (Just go to the recording page). I'm still happily with Buford and we'll also be recording a new CD soon. I've also been working on some original stuff, and just bought a HUGE Roland keyboard and signed up for jazz piano lessons. Musically, things are going strong - the one constant in my life.

I've also decided to open an online store for trendy plus-size clothing. It's basically an online consignment shop, and I have high hopes that it will do well and bring in a lot of extra cash for me. I built and designed the website myself, and although it's not done yet you can see it here: bigdivafashions.com. It will be up and running for business on Monday, January 3rd. So, if you have any plus-size wearing friends, do me a favor and spread the word? Would definitely appreciate that!

I wish that I had some more exciting news for you, but since I've basically been locked up in my house for 5 months, not a lot has been going on other than me becoming and even MORE kick-ass Scrabble and Poker player. You know, I can bring it!

So, that's my last lame-ass entry for 2004. Hopefully 2005 will be much more inspiring, and I'll have lots of juicy diva stories for you.

May you all have a healthy and HAPPY new year in 2005!!


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